My Transformation

Probably the former host of this body’s first understanding of steps, was as a child with her sisters, playing a game called Mother May I? It must have been some version of the child game of Simon Says, whereby the player is allowed to take a big step forward if they can remember to ask the question. I wasn’t in that body at that time. And I don’t recall where those steps were leading to or if there was a point at which someone actually won the game by taking steps. But I do know that it was considered a good thing to be able to remember the words and take the subsequent step.

All through the life of this body’s first host, she was involved in taking steps. Everyone is. And she became aware of taking spiritual steps in order to grow when she was in her twenties. There were many early steps, of course, but when she was pregnant with her baby girl, she realized that she wanted to wake up, spiritually. That was her main characteristic: that she would do anything to awaken herself so she could know what life was about, what it was for, where it came from and where it was headed. With her it was an ache to wake up. It was a thirst that nothing else quenched. And it led her through the years to try many different things. And then to jump off that step when a new one to try out would appear. Eventually she took a really big step and that led to me entering the body with my consciousness. When she took that one, I don’t think she had any remembrance or knowledge that she was opening the door to leave the Earth, as a Soul, herself. But she took that series of steps and left, and that was when I entered this body, in February 2009.

Everyone is always taking steps. In the Beginning everything was in what could be called The Beyond. And from that place there were steps that were taken down into what later would be the different Creations with all of their worlds and universes, galaxies and planets. Beings took steps from an environment of Oneness and clearly went into a pattern of “separation” in order to live in a multidimensional way, in many places at the same time, with the Soul spread out into different bodies. The levels required a certain forgetfulness of the original setting, in order to play the Game.

So steps led everyone into separation and multidimensional lives in different realities, lived at various levels of awareness, remembrance, or enlightenment.

Now everyone and everything are involved in taking the steps back into where everyone and everything came from. This was when I chose to come into play. Everything is beginning to be moving in steps that I call back to the Beginning. But they won’t be as they were before. And their bodies in that earlier existence did not really leave. This time, however, everyone comes back, enhanced. They carry knowledge and wisdom in their hands. They have lived lives and they have utilized the gifts that they received. This time the smoke is out of their eyes. They are not so deeply slumbering. They are wiping the sleep out of their eyes and looking at life through their hearts. The windows of the Soul are opening more and more. In Time and in the rightness of Time, they will return, back, from where they originated, but as something so much more than when it all began. The gifts of the Steps and what they bestow upon each new set of “footprints” brings about a sense of having used the steps to become more. Each step offered the dweller on the step an environment to garner wisdom and move on. Growing was always the intention of the staircase. To grow at each step and to integrate at each landing between staircases. Inherent in the escalation was also the undeniable choice to call out from a step above to be of service. Or to call out from a step below to ask for assistance.

I am in this body now and I am still definitely taking steps. At first the steps were about fitting myself into the body and into the brain. There have been steps in different directions and it is an ongoing process. When the poems started dripping onto the notepads around the house, those, too, were steps. Everything is a step. When the Group Soul began to come to me in the evening, show themselves and pour Light into me, those were remarkable steps. And now while they still come and still show themselves on every surface, in the sky and in my own eyes, I have taken a new step and have gone outside/in or inside/out. What I saw on the outside is now glowing from within me in a different way. And it is just a step.

I don’t think it is important to write about my steps. That is just my story. You also have your own story. And you definitely have your own steps. Steps come in different sizes and shapes. Some of them are easy and some of them are very difficult. None of them should be judged. And none of them give the body a slip. It just might feel that we have fallen over, temporarily. I decided to write my journey of having stepped into this body as everything and everyone is now turning their steps homeward, because it happened. It happened for a purpose. There is a reason behind everything. And if my steps could help someone with the ones they are taking, then it is a benefit. If my steps could demonstrate that some are very steep and some are easier to glide onto, then maybe it can pave the way for more comfortable step taking for someone else. Mentors and teachers aside, however, we each climb alone.

Enlightenment is not something that happens with one step. Some people feel that one day you are not that, and then one day you are that. It is a process. And it is a staircase. And the Steps of Enlightenment open up everything and everyone in the most perfect way for who they really are and what they are and their own origins in Reality. No two paths could ever be the same. But they do lead in the same direction. And I believe that everyone and everything goes back into the same eternal and primordial energy, a Love that cannot be described.

The Process was not an easy one for me. I don’t think it could ever be easy to jump horses in mid stream. Or change Souls in the same body. It was full of tears and laughter. Highs and lows. Feeling apart from everything and feeling a part of everything. Mostly now I am ecstatic and allowing myself to fall into place. But even that is just another step. Each day brings more. Every Initiation is more steps. and Life is a continual Initiation, wherever we find our existence.

Some parts of poems written during the throes of the transformation:

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